Monday, January 28, 2008
finally!
MP is done!! yeayness!
okay, at least the documentation part is done. can u imagine, 431 pages of report???!!
INSANE!!
now, i can focus on my lab quiz, test and exam. phew!
i dun feel good. maybe the stress and what not.
falling ill.
btw, after my exams, i wanna go and run! haha. wanna look good for my DnD. whee!! haha.
all that aside, im actually feeling kinda low.
im so feeling like a bitch. i made a few new guy friends online. and one in particular is making me feel uneasy coz he calls me sayang, dear.. love you. miss you..
and he's not even my bf! i think im still attached to azman. i think. the last time i heard from him was the sunday when i came home from chalet! speaking of which ive yet to upload the pics. haha.
haiz. my life is just too complicated.
yesterday when i went to bed at ard 4am, i cried myself to sleep. again. i dunno why i suddenly cry. maybe coz whenever i have time for myself, i think of him. even now i do. and it hurts me to be in this situation. why is that i can never be happy with a man i love? they say that love is the most beautiful thing that can happen to a person but why does it seems bleak to me? dont i deserve to be loved just like everybody else? what wrong have i done to deserve this?
and as if that wasnt enough, i dreamt about him just now during my nap.
dear God, please, give me happiness that i deserve!!
the end.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
i was so scared just now la. i was alone in the lab doing work. my friends went to have lunch. while doing work, i got a stiff body so i turned ard to stretch my body. and to my suprise, i saw my stalker with his friend, walking past the lab beside mine, screening the lab!!! obviously looking for me! i quickly hide behind the wall hoping he wouldnt see me. and thank god he didnt. i quickly grabbed my hp and called eunice to come back to the lab asap. i was so farking scared lah!
whee! my D&D, 4 March 2008. Downtown East. hahaha. wadahell.
Masquerade!!
the end.
Monday, January 21, 2008
im so stressed up i puked my guts out just now!
ARGH!!
always happens when im stress.
haiz......
will blog about the chalet with pics when i have the time.
super busy right now!
the end.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
again.
i just dont get it! WHY!!?
tears.
as much as i say i wont think about him or wont bother, deep down i still do!
im so upset. every free second i have, i think of him. busy or not, i do.
it hurts so damn much!!!
the end.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
been a while since i wrote an entry.
been busy. projects, test, presentations.
been sleeping at 4plus the past 3 to 4 weeks. waking up at 6.30 to solat and again at 7.30 to go school. then stayed till late in school doing project. shit lah. im so dead!!
my eyebags are so damn obvious i gotta put makeup on to hide it! hehe.
and im so damn tired and sleepy. i need my Red Bull please!!! cartons!
got back my test results. subjects which i think i failed, i passed. the one i hope to pass with flying colours, i failed. wadafark. haiz.. after Major Project, thats it! study like crazy to try and pull up my grades!
anyway, 18, 19 and 20 got chalet! whee! hahaha.
but i wont be there lah kan. projects! taken over my life!!!
i love my bf. but i hate him too. get what i mean? love-hate thing. argh!! i refuse to think about him as of now. im busy. so yah. its not as if i hear from him anyway. he's busy too.
oklah. push thoughts of being happy aside, i shall focus on my MP.
the end.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
went to school at 8am for my presentation. the group didnt rehearse but it went well. haha. after that, went for lecture. ended early. so me and my two babes went to TM Starbucks to chill. my idea. wanted to end 2007 with my babes. haha. my friends didnt msg me anything so i assume no plans. haha.
so, we chilled and played Uno and cam-whored. had a blast.
then heed home and find out about the JB plan. so ape lagi. pergi lah. haha. kalau tak aku sambut 2008 sorang2 pat umah. went there and bought Levi's jeans for 145 ringgit. haha. and a crop jacket for myself. we stayed in JB till 12 plus. haha. nampak bunga api pat sane but seriously hilarious lah. satu. satu dia keluar. haha.
sampai umah kul 1 lebih. then my mum was in serious pain. so i had to bring her to the hospital. called my kakak n husband. and me n my kakak uruskan my mum. i stayed with her till 5. i was damn tired. previous night i slept at 4. woke up at 6 to go school. and the whole week ive been slping late. haha. reached home, bathe and kemas barang2 sikit and went to sleep at 6.
woke up at 2pm. haha. kemas umah and did nothing the whole day.
i smsed azman. but no reply.
saw him online. he msged me. after 5 replies, he went to sleep. typical.
oh! mr ridzuan msged me. haha. 2008 wish. cool. haha.
anyway, in 2008, i hope,
- for happiness for myself.
-success in life
-get into NIE
-save up pamper myself
-and be happy with my friends!
see that i did not mentioned the BF.
haha. im single!
the end.