Tuesday, December 30, 2008
woke up this morning and msged my cousin abt our meeting later. he said he get back to me coz he was planning to go JB to modify his car or something. so i said okay and get back to me lah. coz i ended at 2pm.
went to sch and had to take over a form teacher coz she wasnt ard. brought the P1s ard the sch and stuff. quite oklah.. ended ard 11am. went to the conference room to have my break while waiting to another meeting. started late and ended late. and ive been put in charge of something which i hope i can do it and not screw it up coz i really am blur.. in a sense that im unfamiliar with their style or syllabus. so yah. by then Dzul msged me to meet him at 3.30 instead of 1pm at suntec to talk abt insurance plan lah. and i also msged my cousin and asked if he still going jb but he never reply coz ngan tido.
so after work took a bus to suntec. waited for dzul for abt 1.5 hrs. went window shop for a while. met him and talked till he had to go for another meeting ard 4plus. i was already planning to go hospital since cousin tak reply but he did when me and dzul parted so changed of my plans and we met up to eat.
took my time coz he just woke up and went ring shopping. i wanted to buy that diamond ring from citigems but i need someone to help me choose!! haha.. range from 150 to 170. not bad lah kan.. so in the end i didnt buy. damn. took the train down to paya lebar to go city plaza. dah sampai he called and asked me to go to TKC carpark where he was waiting for me. haha. picked me up then we went to eat at Arnolds. dah lama seh tak makan sane.. last time was in primary 2. hahaha. we shared a meal together. half spring chicken between 2 of us. haha. and we met our aunt there with her kids. haha.
after that he wanted to bring me to eat ice cream at The Ice-Cream Chefs at East Coast Rd. nak gi holland v jauh so he said next time. again, we shared a cup of ice-cream. not bad.. quite yummy. but i couldnt eat alot coz i desperately need to pee!! hahaha..
after ice cream we went to east coast park since it was nearby and we had no idea where to go. went there and chatted. he showed me his pics when he went to Italy. talked2.. haha. by now im smiling remembering the convo. haha.
as usual he puji me from the moment we sat down at Arnolds till kita kat East Coast. puji giler seh. so shy lah. haha.. said that too bad we are cousins if not i would have chased u like theres no tom. chase u forever. exact words. haha. we talked abt our childhood. my life.. he felt so sad for me he said he wanted to cry just hearing my story. haha.. then he asked if he can gimme a hug which i said no but he did anyway. haha. no fir, its not the sampai nak kene pakai oxygen tank. haha. just a short one. then he rested his head on my shoulder. i was feeling abit uncomfortable lah coz hes my cousin. and he just told me that he told his dad when he was younger that he likes me.. till now he wish that i can be with him and stuff like that. we are so similar in a way that as if we are twins. no joke. what i like he like. what i dun he dun. how i think or act is the same as him. but yah.. we could never be together. we said that just now. we know we cant be together.. not possible. haha. told me he kept asking his dad, cousin can kahwin tak. haha. hes okay getting married to cousin. i dunno if im up to it. haha.. only that part we differ. we snapped pics with his camera and he said we look perfect as a couple eh. hahaha. so anyway.. we chatted till abt 9.45 and made our move.
drop by his place coz he had something to give me from Italy. haha. went up lah. my aunt was sleeping but woke up coz my uncle tot his friend came. haha. my uncle was watching tv in the dark so didnt know it was me. haha. so yah.. chatted with them for awhile then he called me into his room to sit. wasnt there long lah. 10pm we left the house and he drove me home.
and there you go. my 'date' with my cousin. hahah. sound of that so wierd.
he bought me a pisa magnet and also a pendent made of handmade glass.. pretty.. i like.
im kinda sleepy coz i didnt get enuf sleep coz my dad dah dapat iphone dia and i helped configure till ard 2plus and had to wake up at 6. same as the day before chatting with fir. haha. so guess, im going to sleep. nites world.
the end.
Monday, December 29, 2008
went to my cousin's wedding ard 2pm i think. help sikit2... then saw my cousin walked in. but we didnt say hi coz i was busy eventho he walked past me. haha. then mum forced me to eat.. we ate as a family and sat ard chatting.. haha.. waste time.. played with baby boy.. did a bit of cleaning up lah also.. takkan nak curi tulang jerkan.. then my aunts came.. so i layan lah drg.. then saw my cousin eating alone.. haha.. he called me to join him.. so i did after i cleared the plates.. so we catched up. haha.. bebual bual sampai kul 5.. majlis end.. haha.. we helped cleared the tables and stacked them up.. then his parents drove home. he stayed coz he told me nak catch up over lost times with the other cousins. by then i was alone downstairs coz my mum dah naik. so i ajak him up lah coz he seem so lost. haha.. so went up.. nothing to do so we sat and chatted lah.. hehe.. he puji me lah.. say im the prettiest among my siblings.. got kind heart.. nice girl.. haha.. said if he was one of the guys i dated, he wouldnt let me go.. haha.. so yah..we chatted.. and then he said we have alot of pics growing up as kids but none as adults. so he snap a pic. haha. first one wasnt successful so i snap using my hp. then when he got his to work again, he snapped another. haha.
and boy did we get looks from our makciks and pakciks. haha.. my aunty lagi merepek. she saw me talking while he was eating kan, so she asked "nana, tu bf nana eh? hansem ape.." of coz i said no lah.. cousin jer.. "then she said okay ape" haha.. merepek.. then kat atas, my uncle, pointed out at us.. said "ni dua mcm ade pape je daripada tadi asyik ketawa jer.." and his wife, tried to evesdrop on our convo. haha.. private kay.. haha
oh.. while chatting i asked how he's going home coz his parents drove home. so i tot he take public or walk lah. but he said he drives. so i ask what car. and he smiled and said BMW. i was like WTH!! a freaking bmw!! for a 20 year old boy!! he drives to work and stuff.. BMW.. kaya kaya.. haha..
and... we are going out this tues.. hehe.. he asked me, so when are we going out? haha.. i said whenever u are free lah.. and not tired.. coz shift work wad.. then he said tues and wed he off.. i said tues i got sch and end petang lah.. he end work tues morning at 7.30.. he suggested tues lah.. after work he go home sleep jap then meet me.. i said okay.. but i remind him again lah.. if tues he penat then nvm.. another day pun boleh.. so we shall see.. hehe..
oklah.. time for bed.. tho im still chatting with fir.. haha.. fadzli was msging me.. but dah tak reply.. so i think dah tido.. but wish him all the best for swimming test tom.. hope he wont drown.. haha..
anyway, dont worry.. abt me and my cousin.. cousin jer lah.. haha..
the end.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
so anyway, me mum and dad left the place at 1.15am. my sisters and bro in law went home way earlier. i stayed to help out. in my nice baju plus killer heels. that explained my aching body and feet. hoho.
so okay, my cousin came at ard 10? 11? i cant recall coz i wasnt really paying attention. his mum called out to me and pointed at him. coz i asked earlier in the day for him. just making convo. so yah, he was talking to my mum then so i carried on with work. then after a while, we acknowledge each other with a smile and a wave. haha. then i thought of fir. coz i told him he'd be the first to know if i met him. but my hp was in my bag so i didnt tell him. haha. so yah. that was it. we didnt chat. i was busy. and he was busy chatting. he brought his friend anyway.
tom is another long day.. i really should get my 8hours of sleep. nites world.
the end.
Friday, December 26, 2008
plus a p3 social studies and p4 eng, art and pe.
i know.. u guys are all laughing at me.. Dee teaching art n pe?? haha.
long day in sch. from 9am till 5pm meeting. haiz.. i felt a lil sleepy after lunch. but im not a sleepyhead unlike someone i know. and so happened i sat infront of the principal so obviously i cant fall asleep! still.. the long meeting really tire me out.
wanted to go shop but no friends. fir kerje.. wan bz.. haidir kat kl.. nizam and ted tak tanye. haha.. dun think they'd go with me anyways. then got a msg from fahrul. ajak jumpa. so met him for awhile. from 8 to 10. watched Enchanted. haha. wth.
i got alot to do till sch reopens. busy busy week for Miss Diyana. haha.
oh.. i still have Wan's card with me. nanti bile jumpa aku kasi kay.. haha.
alrighty then.wanna go check what i spent on coz i realised my entire bonus is GONE!!! i hardly buy anything for myself!! and maybe reflect and plan on my 2009 resolutions. not that i follow anyway. haiz..
my goals: teaching, driving and happy relationships.
haha. didnt happen.
the end.
dreamt that me and hamad got together.
NITEMARE! as what wan said. haha.
i need a life. and someone who can make me feel good. and loved. haha.
but its okay. shall wait. get my dream job first before i get my dream guy. =p
im eating Baci chocolates again! haha.
used to eat them alot in sec sch. thats why i ballooned! well, that plus the french fries at Mac.
they have love notes in it and i used to collect it and gave it to hamad for one of our anniversaries. haha. now, im keeping it for myself.
i got sch tom.. and then maybe go shop. but takde member ah.. haha.. anyone?
the end.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
tom, gotta go my aunt's house. help rewang. i dun really like it lah. haha. plus its relative on my dad's side. im not close with them. so, bummer. thurs till sun i be there to help and stuff. crap. who can i talk to? haha. me myself and i? dun think be meeting my cousin there. he hardly turn up in any of family events. haha.
anyway.. sorry guys. cant spend time with u this weekend. dunno if i can try get a few hours out on saturday. but doubt it. but u guys enjoy kay.. haidir, gi holiday beli lah aku barang.. haha.. kidd bro.
fir ajak keluar tadi but i cant. was out to town with mum. last min shopping to buy her kasut to wear for the jemputan. haiz. lagipun, its raining.. and im pms-ing. haha..
next week, gonna be busy attending to atuk pula. he will be warded to undergo an op to make his veins bigger for dialysis. i told fir, he's damn skinny. like 43kg ajer. haha. but thanks bro for making me feel a lil better. so this new year, kita semua pat hospital lah.
on a recent trip to henderson waves.
im dreading to go back to sch! i dunno. dun feel like im ready. damn. its so hard to get materials on the net. and ive been so lazy to go out to find my research. God! hope i be able to carry out my lessons properly next year.
my one and only love. =) (okay, i know im going to find him irritating when he's about 2 or 3 years and above. haha.)
the end.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
and i bought myself a pair of sandals. i wanted that cotton on pumps! but cant find one in my size. bummer. dun think im buying the 200bucks watch. maybe getting a baby-G or adidas one. haha. ring? entah.. see how.. maybe not. haha. my budget running low. entah.. maybe coz i paid for my grandad's treatment that day. need to re-plan my finances again. haha. and maybe withdraw my savings and keep it at home so i wont spend it. haha.. alrighty then. gotta go for tuition. my kid called already. he missed me.. haha.. =) K-NITE! =p1) a portable CD drive for my small laptop
2) that watch from Takashimaya
3) a ring from SK or Taka Jewellery. maybe not Tiff&Co. prices so ex! haha.
4) shoes5) nice leather bag. will forgo the braun buffel wallet. maybe next pay?
okay.. i really wanted that black and gold bag from Charles and Keith but i bought this instead. haha. different design from what i wanted.
the end.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
singapore flyer was cancelled coz one of them pms-ing. haha.
so it was a trip down to Cash Box Studio! first time for me. haha.
we sang, no, we screamed out lungs out!! singing zombie.. killing me softly.. all kinda genres lah. haha. pop, rnb, rock, jiwangs.. mcm2.. techno pun ade! tu, my cousin yang nyanyi. will upload their vids one day. haha. kekek... giler2.. haha.
rock habis seh kiter.. suara semua hilang. but fun seh.. 3 hours..
we should go one day.. haha.
trip to the dentist was PAINFUL!!
did scaling and polishing. and.. i was told.. i got a wisdom tooth growing! god.. so wise already.. haha. kay.. lame.. yah.. got to look out for it.. scared seh.. kalau kene extract. damn pain kay!!
the end.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
woke up, clean house, cuci carpet.. then baby boy came! hehe.
i didnt want to leave house coz i was suppose to meet Sergeant Haidir at 5plus but they drag me out to go view houses at jurong! haha. so my dad drove to his place instead and i passed his mp3. haha. sorry eh bro if i rushed u..
view houses but nothing impressed us. haha. then had dinner at west coast then drove by orchard road to see the lights. baby boy was so excited. he was jumping up and down. penat layan karenah budak tu. haha. brought my camera along to snap2. but i say its still better to be on foot to take the pics.
my life is super boring. haha.
tom got dental appt. then going out with my cousinS! singapore flyer here we come!! after that entah.. maybe movie or shopping? see la..
haha. i need to change my msg alert tone. my cousin msged me at 6plus and i didnt realise till he called me at 9plus. haha. sorry, my bad..
told my mum firdaus suruh i masuk police. didnt tell her the reason why tho. hahaha! imagine, "Bu, firdaus suruh nana masuk police. kate dia, kalau masuk police, senang dapat matair. mat2 police juga." hahah. seriously, kalau u were to say that fir to recruit female officers, i think ramai takkan join the force. or will they? hahaha.
the end.
the baby in our group. haha.
today, went out with haidir, firdaus and nizam. went to eat at arab st. then walked to sim lim. i bought myself a portable cd drive. hurhur. thanks haidir for going shopping with me. and fir n nizam too. nizam went to repair his mp3. hehe. after that, we walked back to bugis and sat at starbucks. bought ourselves drinks and laughed ourselves silly. haha. its always nice to be ard them. eventho they can be irritating at times.. haha. i went home early while they went to see a performance. wished i can go but mum will nag at me if i didnt go home. bumped into my ex's family at eastpoint. only tasha saw me. and we exchanged a quick smile and wave before i picked up the pace to walk away. haha.
im tired. but i refuse to sleep. dunno why. feel like tears are going to wet my cheeks. i guess it has to do with everything in my life. my sad pathetic life. haiz. i just wish things be much easier for me. oh, dun worry. its just the pre-pms symptoms. something i go tru before the time of the mth. haha. i cry, i feel sad.. nothings changed. denial? it works. haha.
the end.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Cinderella
the end.
Friday, December 19, 2008
i received some shocking news yesterday when haidir called!!
HUDA IS GETTING MARRIED!! TO A DOCTOR!!
omg!!!
okay fine. im freaking jealous. who wont!! a doctor!! damn!!
im so happy for her. tho we hadnt been in contact since like sec 4.. but still.. good for her lah. shes a damn nice girl.. deserve the doctor. hahaha. damn!!
i have been pigging since tuesday!! urgh. fast foods, chocolate, ice cream.. my thunder thighs definately grew much bigger!! mcm tyra banks skrg. damn big! im so embarrassed of myself! haha. im so fat!!
on top of that, ive been waking up at 12pm everyday!! haha. anak dara ape nie.. haha. but i really need 8hours of sleep. smlm tido kul 4am. cant freaking sleep. matilah aku kalau dah start kerje nanti.. haiz..
okaylah. nak mandi.. then siap nak keluar. mlm got tuition lagi. haiz.. penat ah. haha.
the end.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
i wished him and suprised he replied. haha.
i wasnt expecting him to start a chat but he did so i replied lah.
same ol' qn. hows life. got bf. then disappear again.
like whatever kan? haha.
he asked, how come no bf? u r a nice girl wad. maybe u yang cerewet sangat..
yah. whatever. u left me idiot. so sape yang cerewet? sapa yang tak sudi? arse.
ok. brb. gotta go send my aunt's maid to the airport. haha.
the end.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
of coz must do finances first mah before i actually buy the goods..
the end.
Monday, December 15, 2008
just got back frm SGH at ard 2.30am. sent my grandad there with my nenek. he's still complaining of the pain. like his 3rd time warded just this month alone. this time, nothing serious. doctor said it was just gas. unlike his previous one. appendicitis. had an operation to remove it.
and theres this good looking nurse i recognise from my previous trip there. hehe. sempat cuci mata eh diyana.. haha.
im hungry. but i really need to lose weight. haiz.. my sizes kept increasing! god help!!
maybe some slimming pills will help. haha. nolah.. exercise.. kasut NIKE banyak2 tak pakai sayang pula kan.. hahah.
i miss driving!! god!
the end.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
thats the 2nd time people asked me that!! today!! faisal from my internship and fir.
hahah. tak sabar2 nampak nak tengok aku kahwin? hahaha.
anyway, im bored to death!
~~Dmitri Prince Of Darkness~~ http://dmitri-is-firdaus.blogspot.com... says:
SO KO NI LAWA TAK?
.:~Ana~.: Shopping Spree 20th Dec 2008!! says:
hahaha
.:~Ana~.: Shopping Spree 20th Dec 2008!! says:
am i suppose to say yes?
~~Dmitri Prince Of Darkness~~ http://dmitri-is-firdaus.blogspot.com... says:
THEN?
hahah.. my dear friends. never fail to make my day! =)
the end.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
i think i can die happy now. haha. made most of my friends happy this whole week alone. from haidir's bade till today. haha.
okay.. so went to Ted's house to bake. kecoh!! was there from 1 to 4. haha. but i say, the cupcakes tasted great. maybe a lil less sugar next time? and less baking powder Ted? haha. but hope ur friends liked it lah. haha. makan, mati hidup semula eh dir? hahah.
anyway, from Ted's place we cabbed to town fetching Nizam otw at TP. reached there ard 4plus 5. Ted went with his friends while we went shopping!! okay, actually Haidir sorang yang blanja besar. maklumlah.. org tu dah gaji and bonus... hahaha.. first stop was Taka. and man.. i fell in love with this watch!! im so gonna buy it!! haha. white and gold ke white and silver. i say gold. coz striking. damn nice lor. to me.. haha... but Nizam say silver. haha. need 3rd opinion. haha. next week ah. haha..
kita masuk Tiffany&Co. haha. kecoh.. nice designs but was so crowded i couldnt really see much. btw, got this minah tudung and her handsome bf there lah buying something from Tiff&Co. he had the box already in his hands!! damn! the girl is like damn lucky!! Tiff&Co seh.. dun play play. haha.
then we got this crazy idea. to buy Wan's bdae present!! haha. he's turning 21 this 21st. cool kan? haha. and i told the guys lah he msged me that day asking for opinion. beli branded watch ke canon camera. so of coz i said camera kan? haha. memories to last forever. lagipun watch, bukan leh pakai slalu pat camp. so he agreed on the cam. so i told the guys lah abt the watch. haha. we came up with a lil lie to get info from Wan on the watch that he had been eyeing on. haha. Kenneth Cole. so kita apa lagi.. cari lah. haha. we saw 2 designs that we liked. but agreed with the leather strap instead of the chain. but the chain was damn damn nice!!! takpe. will buy for my bf one day. haha. initially me and Haidir planned to share cost coz we can afford the price. but Nizam pun nak share so better still lah kan. haha. so yeah. hehe. Happy Birthday Ridzwan!! well.. lum lagi lah.. haha..
shopped around and Haidir bought himself shirts and a pair of DKNY jeans for gf. haha. me and Nizam, kita window shop jerlah. makan angin.. hehe.. we were so hungry lah! i didnt eat anything from morning. except for a cupcake i shared with Haidir. haha. Nizam pun lum makan. so after we met Wan at 7ish at Raffles City, we went to BK. and thats where Haidir presented him with the present. haha. Wan, kau kate kita pantat?? hahaha. funny reaction seh from him. hahaha. hope he liked it tho. sorry eh if it wasnt what u wanted.. coz u couldnt provide me with the details!! hahah. and sorry.. there wasnt any voucher. i lied. haha. sorry tau..
after dinner, i wanted to step into SK and Birkenstock to see if i fancy anything that i would buy. but so far none. haha. lum tiba mase kot. but definately on my list would be:
1) a portable CD drive for my small laptop
2) that watch from Takashimaya
3) a ring from SK or Taka Jewellery. maybe not Tiff&Co. prices so ex! haha.
4) shoes
5) nice leather bag. will forgo the braun buffel wallet. maybe next pay?
itchy wanna change hp. but dun see any nice models i fancy..
okay! pics and vid from today please!! pass to me kay! hurhur. Wan's Suprise Gift. hehe.
oh oh! almost forgot. i cabbed home alone coz the rest nak tunggu for Tipah to end work. so yah. i got this chinese apek lah. hahah! funny shit he was flirting with me can??! hahaha.
"Wah! so pretty no bf ah?"
nolah.. nobody wants to be with me lah.
"Cannot be lah. I tell you they all blind ah. You pretty face, got nice smile so cute somemore guys dont want? Tell them to fly kite lah."
"If i young ah, i will ask you be my gf. Serious. The boys blind lah. They only want sexy girls only."
hahaha.
"You now going home ah? Then later i park my car first lah. I must go see your parents. Tell them, 'You've brought this beautiful angel into this world. I must thank you. But now, i would like to be the one to take care and provide for her.' What shall i buy? I think i buy chocolates? Nasi Briyani? Cake? Fruits? Must buy first before go see your parents."
okay.. so i was just laughing coz its so damn funny! haha. scary pun ade.. so i msged Haidir and Wan called asking what he said lah. haha. but couldnt say coz he was there. after Wan hang up, he asked, Your bf ah? then i say friend only. i know. should have said yes. but was first instinct lah. Then he said You sound so happy? why he want to be your bf ah? haha. funny.. but serious seh.. takut. i was holding on to my hp all the way. takut ape2 jadi. but alhamdulilah tak. but still, was a good laugh lah eh. haha.
aites. end of a very long entry. im tired. oh. today is Zouk Out! i bet you azman is there. haha. wadaver.. maksiat!! ish3...
the end.
the ever classic diamond from Tiff&Co.
haha. whatever made her think so. haha.
and shes up with her tricks again. told me theres a gathering that shikin is gonna organised and liyana is gonnaa bring the guy eunice wants me to meet. cheeky woman. haha.
but.. i love her alot coz she promised to go ring shopping with me!! okay. so she said no diamond ring coz then i be chasing guys away. but shes gonna pick a ring for me from guess where?? Tiffany&Co!! hahaha.
but this is the one i wanna get when i do get married one day!! haha
okay. gtg. going ted's house to bake. then later going out with haidir!! haha. shopping baybeh!
the end.
Friday, December 12, 2008
hahaha. refering to my cousin chat. haha. but yang tak boleh angkat was when he said, go out with him..get to know him better and pimpin tangan. hahah! pimpin tangan?? haha. dun think will ever happen.. haha. and okay.. im not ugly.. im beautiful.. will not be so negative.. org tu marah tau.. haha. org yang nak date kau aku yang excited. hahaha.
then went out with ted and nadiy! and his gf. haha. finally met!! he is still so big as ever!! gosh. haha. went to TM coz i wanna transfer money to my UOB and ted nak amik hp dia. then ate at BK. i want my BK Stacker!! but dun have. promo finish already.. haiz.. so ordered what i normally order. bacon meal. haha.
okay.. so while i was out i tot of a list of things i wanna buy. and i might. haha. here goes.
1. hp
2. red psp slim
3. braun buffel wallet
4. new shoes and clothes
5. a nice leather bag
6. a diamond ring from SK or Taka or wherever
haha. diamond ring. whee! pamper habis. haha. i still like the one hamad bought for me tho. suits me well. but, ive kept it one side now. haha. so anyone wanna come with and help me pick a nice diamond ring?? please do. i need opinions before actually buying one. haha. budget bout 100plus 200 jer lah. haha.
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haha. i was so bored yesterday that i actually watched that hindi movie. one of my fav. haha. and singing along to the song.. heheh.
went to bed at 4. waited for a while for my friend after my cousin logged out but i guess he was still busy gaming so i went to bed. haha. he msged me this morning to say sorry but i didnt mind. replied back to him and told him to enjoy his date with his darling gf later. haha.
oh. oh. the pervertic stalker msged me. and what else. asking me for sex. seriously, do i even look like the kind? god! i need to change my hp humber.
okay..planing planing!! what to shop on?? hehe.
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okay. this i gotta blog. okay.. haha. and then.. NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says: anyway, we plan to meet up. meet for ice cream and bring me to alot of nice places he knows of. haha. we like to talk about childhood days. we were so close back then. haha. my kakak even played matchmaker to me and him. haha. but that was soo long ago. we remembered tho. haha. but we grew up and we became shy and awkward towards each other than we hadnt talked for years!! haha. god he grew up to be soo handsome. haha. and he said that my shyness was cute. =p
so i was online on msn when my cousin pop me a msg.
we've havent chatted for like months or years and im not exagerating coz he was busy with Shatec back then and now police NS. hari raya pun tak jumpa. so yah.. niwae, we chatted and here's part of our convo. haha.
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
if i cud find a gal simply a mirror image of urself..ARgh Simply said a photocopy of urself i wouldnt hesitate 2 marry her on the spot.. i dont mind if the dowry is 20 K
.:~Ana~.: says:
hahahahah..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
i got tell u b4 rite of my feelings 2words u rite?did i
.:~Ana~.: says:
u did? hmm.. not that i know of..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
u rmembered??? oMG how cud u
.:~Ana~.: says:
hahaha.. u really did eh?
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
alah the wan at the chalet remember the aloha loyang or sumting.. its like 3 or 4 am in the morning and our family left to jurong for the fish market thingy and we din followed
.:~Ana~.: says:
oh.. then we sat outside our room chatting.. haha
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
u and me were left alone and the others were like sleeping
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
OMG i so remeber tat part every min and i was like telling wad my heart say but we agreed tt we cud nvr b 2gther someting like dat..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
cos u were still in love wit hamad if im not wrong hehehz..
.:~Ana~.: says:
hahaha..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
omg how cud u i expressed my total fellings and everyting..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
and u cant remember..ha
.:~Ana~.: says:
i kinda remembered the moment but not the convo.. haha..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
u makin me look like a fool but im blushing.. i mean tt time
.:~Ana~.: says:
hahaha.. but i enjoyed that moment.. hehe..
NothinG LAst 4Eva Unless ITS A miracle says:
and ouh i remebere there was a net ball 2..u were like playin with the netball ball while talking and u said u like me too and all but....
im so gona hug u when i see u olrite...so prepare an oxgen tank iclding a mask ok?
haha. a hug? from a male cousin? i mean.. sorry.. it hadnt happened in my family before.. so yah.. awkward.. but i just laughed it off.. haha..
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watched it with my cousins. haha. the hamster is so darn cute!! always have a thing for hamsters dont i? haha. no pun intended. should see what i mean. sooo cute.. hehe.
and... gaji dah masuk!! yeayness!! whee!!
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Thursday, December 11, 2008
"No woman no cry...."
haha. best tau.. should try.. haha.
im bored. and its raining coz TED LUM MANDI!! haha.
anyway, i woke up at 1 tadi. haha. ape tak.. tido kul 6 pagi. webcam with my friend. not fair coz i didnt get to see him. haha. but kecoh. and i got tips on how to lose my thunder thighs! haha. secret. tanak bilang. haha. he was a fitness instructor. and he's enlisting into NS Police in 24 days. haha.
now, webcam ngan my kids pula. kecoh.. i shall chat using my old laptop next time. takde webcam. haha.
and im so blur. i went to renew my PDL that time forget to ask if i can change to 3A. so now im stuck with manual!! haiz.. ape je.. haha.
i need ideas! on how to spend money. haha. what to buy rather. fir kate blanja dia. but sorry eh bro, thats ur gf's job. hahaha. bones say iphone. my friend say PSP. me? i dunno. haha.
listening to Ungu's Tercipta Untukku always make me cry.. i know.. im so emo kan. haha.
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…
Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku… - Nidji
haha. just another song i love to emo to.. hehe.
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008
haha. i didnt expect of getting a bonus close to one month salary! haha. 170 dollars more also nak lokek. haha. didnt expect lor. thought that contract wont get bonus mah.. haha.. u know what this means??? SHOPPING!! haha. wad else would a girl do with all that money kan? haha.
plus, im starting tuition again this monday. and i be getting my other half of the pay which the mum still owe me. thats like another 183. then plus my savings i have now in my bank, i be looking at a total of 3379 buckaroos in my account! hahah. braun buffel here i come!!
having to set aside 700 for my monthly fixed expenses of bills and money to give both my parents and grandparents, i'll have 2600+. what the hell am i suppose to spend on? haha. pening! pening! haha.
taklah.. not gonna spend all the money.. gonna save up! yeah.. maybe spend like 600 or something but the rest, gonna save up. enough for me to go for driving everyday! haha. but the problem is time. and my hectic schedule. insyaallah.. i'll pass it soon. changing from manual to auto coz its much faster to pass i heard. tho driving a manual is way much fun! but first, need to get a private instructor with cheap rates of like 30 per hour? haha. any lobangs?
kk.. gonna go do my financials and plan what to buy. haha. christmas sale and boxing day sale often offer good bargains! why waste this opportunity?? hehe. =)
oh. someone please remind me of my dental appt this 22nd.
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Tuesday, December 9, 2008
so if u were guessing the something special i wanted to do for that someone special, haha, it is specially for haidir! that boy has turned 21!! Wan volunteered to help me bake. so, above was 'Operation 21 Cupcakes' for our very dear friend. haha. special coz no matter how he tries, his hair is still the same. haha. kidd bro! our first time baking cupcakes. haha. ive been so out of touch with baking that this time, it didnt really turned out to be like i hoped for. should have stick to the familiar of baking brownies. haha. but Wan did great with the whisking coz my beater broke down while he was mixing the batter. haha. see.. that boy has muscles kay.. tho as u can see, i think he didnt like doing it. haha. we were so bored while waiting for the cupcakes to bake in my small lil oven so we sat and chatted. and cam whored!! haha. then Ted came fashionably late. like 10plus? we were done by then. and this boy actually has the recipe to bake cupcakes and the stuff to do it! see lah! haiz... after that, we went down coz it was really late and i had 2 boys in my house without any parent. haha. so waited downstairs for Wan's mum to drive him home with Ted. think they left ard 11? yeah.. oh. and u know what ANNOYS me?? the guys teasing me with hamad. come on! ive so moved on. and he's practically engaged to that woman! so let it go man! teasing me like that is not funny kay. makes me look as if im desperately still in love with him. which im NOT! we had our moments and im glad it happened, but ive moved on. seriously. he deserves someone better. so please. stop the nonsense. thank u. theres reasons why im not dating anyone now. u may not understand but that just how i feel. its not that i dont wanna date. but im just scared. ive open up my heart twice and both had been shattered. im not sure if im ready for that again. but ive definately moved on. just waiting for that prince charming to sweep me off my feet. and make me happy again. but he must accept that i will never leave my dear friends (the guys) or mind that i hang out with them coz they are the ones who have been there for me in times of my life crisis. the best friends i'll never forget. love them to death. haha. the guys would probably think thats like so sissy but hey! im a girl kay. tho ive said that imma man. haha okay.. very long entry.. why? coz i cant bloody sleep! so i thot whada heck?! blog ajerlah.. 
1) i have VERY low self esteem thus i keep thinking that im not pretty etc. which im really not. haha.
2) no guys have approached me. bcoz im the 'girl who waits for the man to make the first move' haha.
3) i take a long time to get over someone. thats becoz i really care for them. and i dont think its fair to date someone when i still have feelings or keep thinking about my ex.
4) im scared of changes. i like being in a familiar environment. having dated for 7 years made me that way. too used to the same thing or person. thus, dating is really scary for me.
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Monday, December 8, 2008
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY HAIDIR!!
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Saturday, December 6, 2008
this weekend gonna be a busy one. my grandad warded again today. i was there attending to him from 3 to 10pm. not as bad like his admittance just last week. that time waited from like 11plus to about 10plus 11. this time seems more serious. doc still dunno whats wrong with him. abdominal pain. seems like hari raya kat hospital lor.. but hope he can be discharged lah.
and then.. got to prepare something special. nah.. not for my special someone. but hes "special" in a way. haha. confusing?
tom.. hmm.. entah eh.. confuse!! maybe Wan will come over. or not. not sure yet. but how abt my grandad? hmm.. but besok mesti ramai org kan? maybe i should go in like late afternoon or evening. SGH. so far. so.. gotta wake up early tom. clean2.. then after mum leave, meet Wan to shop. then come over my house.. then leave for hospital.. see how lah tom..
sunday, morning help mum cook lauk raya.. then maybe petang leave home to meet the rest. hehe.. or maybe stop by hospital first before meeting them. see how lah..
okay then. its 3.30am. better try and get some sleep.
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Friday, December 5, 2008
when im gone, will you cry for me?
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Wednesday, December 3, 2008
but.. this woman is very angry!
my damn lil sister went to the prom in a tube dress, my heels and gold clutch. with hair made and stuff. then DXO. bloody hell. i swear to god i wish i my mother knew what goes on in her life. when they are so worried about me, suprise suprise, their precious daughter did something bad. hah. berlagak. action tanye mane tudung nak match ngan baju tu to my mum while i was in the showers. fucking cheebai. i hate my life.
sorry abt the vulgarities. but honestly i really feel like a damn outcast! argh!
and im done repairing fahrul's laptop. that arse. stop using emotional blackmail can. i told him in his face that he made his choice. and he went on saying that if he could, he would change things to be with me. but he cant. and of coz that is all bull. no no. im not hoping hes with me. hes a womanizer. why would i want to be with him? and the fact that he slept ard and gets high. he made a good point which i think he said that to make me feel better as if i was still in love with him that even if we got together, my parents would take one look at him and said NO like what they did to azman when i only had to describe him. which i had to agree. but we also agreed that all that didnt matter. like what he worked as and stuff. what matters is that he had a job that is halal and earns good money that he can support the family with. i didnt mind azman was a crane operator with PSA. okay, they had a better name to it. and no, i wasnt looking at his income. i love him for him. i dont even know how much he earned! but he assured me that he can support me as his income was quite big with all his allowance and stuff. my mum didnt see it that way tho. crane operator? NO. must be a uni grad.. good working position. be at the same level as me, a teacher at least or better. but do i really care about that?? hell no. all i care about is that he would be able to support me and my family, to love and cherish me and be with me till death do us part. there. simple.
argh. all these rage!!
ok. calm down. look at the 'white snow' and calm down diyana.
haiz..
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Tuesday, December 2, 2008
no. im not pregnant. its the seafood! heh.
anyway, woke up this afternoon and got a msg from fahrul. said he needed help coz his laptop crashed. of coz, spent too much time watching porn i suppose. the last time i did his laptop, god. alot of porn. haha. anyway, he called me after work. i think he wanted me to meet him to do his laptop but i lied saying that i was going out. he said he try but if cant i said i'll meet him tom. then he started scolding me. well.. not in an angry manner. questioned why i never msg him or call him. if he never msg or call, i wouldnt. kate i dah tak sayang dier lagi. so emotional blackmail seh!! like duh! tunang org seh. takkan i nak keep throwing myself at him when clearly he made a choice! haha. womanizer.
and guess wad.. my lil sis is still not home. and its 1.15am. she had her graduation nite. fuck its not fair! im always the outcast in my family. both my sisters got a chance to go for their prom or grad nite. but me?? i had to lie to go for BIT nite. my one and only DnD that i have. i didnt have prom. and i wasnt allowed to go for that grad nite. my friends paid for me just so i would go. i had to lie to them in order to go. but my sisters, no question asked! well, except for the when and where. but look! its freaking 1.15am and shes not home yet! fuck! i seriously hate my life!
sorry. this woman is full of rage! and i need to throw up. i swear, no more seafood!!
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Monday, December 1, 2008
need to be brainwashed. get rid of all the memories.
i dont need them. been bugging me. i see images of my memories whenever i close my eyes.
i need to stop crying.
not as if i hadnt try to stop thinking abt it but i just cant. it comes naturally to haunt me.
my bad deeds. my past history.
argh!
i feel so useless. to my family. myself.
feel like im such a failure. ive never acheived anything that could make my parents proud. NEVER. my siblings, all As students. Uni grad, JC going to Uni. whereas i got 199 for PSLE. failed maths most of the time during sec and had to retook Olevels to enter Poly. and couldnt be the top 5% student like my mum wanted me too. all these while, im being compared and treated differently. and i dont think im good enough to go to NIE to be a teacher like they wanted me to. all these plus my bad deeds, i really feel like im just a parasite living in this world.
yes. ive very low self esteem. and i feel myself sinking even deeper.
did i mentioned i dreamt that i stab myself with a knife coz i was full of anger and coz i couldnt live my life? twice i dreamt abt it. betcha didnt know.
god, i need you.
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