Saturday, January 31, 2009
haha. everyone was shocked i can go out at that hour. haha. 12am. haha. but still, got escort lah. my dad waiting to fetch me home. as if im not old enough to balik sendiri. takpe.. my dad loves me. haha.
super kecoh as usual. tak henti2 ketawa. thanks to the bunch of guys. and saw a few familiar faces as well. like my pri sch mate but he tak kenal me lah. been years already. and some TP students. dunno who but i recognise face. and also, kawan fadzli. im bad with names but i remember faces. elfiez eh? i think. hes in the same group as Salim my pri sch friend whom i dont think can recognise me. haha. so i tot it was him lah. so msged bones to confirm and indeed he was. wadlah bones.. tak see ur friend off. haha. kidd.
but funny thing was, sharifah cried. hahah. sorry girl.. cannot forget. haha. kecoh. mak and adik nizam tak cry, tipah yang nangis. haha. nizam pun can see muka sedih.. his mum said he will cry. but good thing he didnt. kalau tak hancur image mat rock. hahah.. kidd bro.. we'll certainly miss you. balik jer, kita gi karaoke lagi kay? hahah. =)
me and bones wish both our friends a safe flight.
okay then.. its 3am. time to go to maui. haha. i wish. i think its beautiful.. maybe one day. maybe.. hahah.
nites world!
the end.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Rozana.. kau gadis idamanku... haha..
and now Nickleback's song Gotta be Somebody is stuck in my head. i know... the song is so 2008. haha.. but after talking to Wan that day, the song kinda suit me. or us. haha.. dun worry wan.. Theres gotta be somebody for me out there.. hahah.. i know how u feel man.. haha.. dun worry.. we are not that LOW okay.. we'll meet someone someday. haha.
omg.. i love elfie! i want to download his song but takde.. haiz..
Kini ku sedari
Kau tak kembali lagi
Di saat begini
Ku perlukan keyakinan mu disisi
hahah. jiwang akak nie..
my stalker msged me. asked me if i block him on msn. dia sedih i did so. like DUH.. mestilah block. org giler. haha. okay im mean..
oklah.. nak sleep. haha.
oh.. boys are yucky. and sweet talkers. seriously. including my cousin. haha.
the end.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
taken during BIT nite. kesian kau.. been wondering how he looked like. haha. kat camp pun tak tau sape. haha. evil me.. i shall publish that pic here. sorry bones. i know u wanna keep ur identity a secret. but good looking brad pitt cant be anti-social kan.. good looks must show. hahaha! =)
haha. i like this pic. so shy. haha. but so cute.
haha. i was going tru old pics to fill time in making a new layout and i saw this pic! but i like the other one better. haha. felt like celebrity. sat at the couch and have like paparazzi snapping our pics away.. haha.. so funny..
so wan, that is fadzli. of coz he's not botak in this pic. so dunno if u can recognize him ke tak.. but yah.. hehe.. sorry bones.. =)
the end.
haha. i found one! i got the pic but too lazy to upload. haha.
so anyway, i msged fadzli and told him i found his ring! haha. and of coz the joke led on to marriage and stuff. funny. haha. seriously, who would even wanna marry me. haha.
it all started when i was asking ard for opinion on which item to buy. a ring or a watch for myself. and yah.. he kinda said tot i buy for him. so i said i will.. buy him that ring pop if i ever find it. coz its been years since i saw it. and i found one! hahaha. cool..
so movie marathon with ridzwan was FUN. money well spent. haha. we watched Inkheart and Bride Wars. hehe. great shows. and he was Cikgu Ridzwan for a while. haha. helped me to mark my maths papers. hehe.
alrighty then. i dunno what else to do. lesson plan done. maths analysis done. marking done. music for cheerleading done. what else do i have? hmm.. if not, shall sleep. haha. ms sleepyhead. dunno why i woke up at 9am just now. my parents were still slping. we reached home quite late yesterday.
i wish the holidays were longer...
oh and guys, nizam nak gi karaoke! haha. so lets have another session once he's back from Taiwan kay? hahah.
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
coz i find myself crying today.
as usual i was cleaning my room and came across old photos of him. and i felt my heart ache. and i started crying. i knew why. i missed my past. and i wanna go back and make things right. but too bad it not possible.
i knew i said i wont have a bf and i dun need one, i lied. of coz i would love to have someone to fuss over me, to love and pamper me. to be there for me.. but i just dun have one. im glad my friends have been doing a darn good job in doing so for me. but sometimes, u just need that someone special to do it for u..
entahlah. maybe im really that emotional. duh. im a girl.
it didnt help that yesterday, we went to changi point that got me reminded of Azman. and the fact that my cousin's bf walked over to meet the family for a short while before going off. then later in the car, my pakcik n makcik was like asking when's it gonna be my turn to get married. and i said i didnt have any. my aunt said my voice sounded mcm dah pasrah jer..i was like yah.. dah pasrah.. lagipun memang takde yang sudi.. then the situation felt tense. like as if they asked a wrong question. haha.
no. im not rushing to get married. im still so young. 22. marriage is far from my thoughts. but would love to have someone i can date and fall in love with for a few years before settling down.
okay. gotta go wipe my tears. cousin just called. he's FINALLY driving over to send me my big pile of work. then i can busy myself with work and not think abt this.
the end.
met nizam, his sis and haidir at tamp. went to courts. then fir and gf joined us. after nizam beli cam, we headed to nizam's family pit. sorry man. i felt so outta place. haha. then was suppose to meet cousin to get my kids maths files so i can go markings, checking and analysis of the kids' work but he was sleeping. was hoping to do it tom. but yah.. then met my family at Rasa 21. i cabbed from pasir ris int. haha. bought donuts b4 that. then family went to changi point. the jetty there. brought back memories. coz ive been there before with azman. during mercu days. only the two of us. reached ard 10pm.. to study.. but we hardly did any studying. haha. and left close to 12. so yah.. kinda had my tots on him for a while. anyway, it was super freezing cold! wonder how those people can stand the cold and stay there hoping to catch some fish. we left ard 1.45am. reached home ard 2. god. so tired.
im sorry guys if i wasnt myself tadi. i really feel fine. maybe im just tired. entah. i dunno. i dunno if theres anything bothering me or its just my pms. entah. but, im really sorry kay.. and thanks for making me laugh.. and fir, for irritating me. haha.
tom, dunno got plans anot. if not i shall really go over and get my work so i can complete all my work tom and rest on mon n tues. well.. not really rest. kid's mum wants tuition on tues. and thank god! movie marathon with ridzwan on monday!! haha.
the end.
Friday, January 23, 2009
why...?
coz i felt damn pampered today! hahah.
why...?
coz my cousin cooked for me and made me dessert! yummy stuff! =)
hehe. he called me at 5.30am. talked for a while coz he couldnt sleep. then msged him while getting ready. he asked me what food ive craving for. so i said ice cream. and for some strange reason, nasi goreng. haha. then he said he wanna make me feel special today. and in the mood to cook. haha. so i said if he wants too then okaylah. then at ard 9ish, got msg from him. told me hes out buying the ingredients to cook. haha. i was like omg for real?? haha. then he came and fetch me at 12.30. but i was a lil late coz ive tons of work to do. so then we drove back to his place and he served me nasi goreng and thai tea with basil seeds. haha. we ate while watching 'No Reservations'. been wanting to watch that movie. so yah.. then... he suprised me. with delicious desserts! hahah. i mean seriously, i didnt expect him to make desserts. okay there's a name to it like the kind u eat in fancy restaurant, creme something2.. got blueberry and some fancy french cheese and yogurt. haha. damn nice can.. he made 3 of those and we finished them all. haha. after which he drove me back to sch and waited for a while to pack my stuff coz he offered to bring home for me so i dont have to waste on cab fare. haha. gonna go get from his car tom.
okay sorry.. long paragraph. but seriously, i was like smiling all the way lah.. its been a long time since something that sweet happened to me.. haha.. like to cook for me.. no one ever done that before kay.. i was so touched. haha. if ive to list down the best things ive received from my previous relationship, and give an award, i'll have:
Best Present: the SK ring from Hamad (coz the ring really suit me lah. not him. hahah.im mean)
Creativity and Originality: the Message in the Bottle from Fadzli (its super sweet lah!! haha.)
Sweetest Act: Izzat to cook and made me dessert just to make my day. and to praise me ALOT!
but seriously, now im just like wondering why i still dun have a guy. haha. my cousin said im beautiful and wad not but seriously, if im all that, i wouldnt be alone right now. haha.
but my p1 kids lagi cute. haha. one of my girl, said "but Miss Diyana, you are not that pretty."
haha. see. honesty. serious! only kids can give u the real truth. so stop lying to my face people! i was right all along! haha. i am not pretty!!
but ive also another kid. no wait. 2 kids. one of them came up to me during reccess and hugged me from the back and said "Cutie cutie cutie.. Miss Diyana, you're so so cute!!" and she and her friend pinched my cheeks while saying that. of coz i denied and told her im not. haha. she was at it for like 10 mins before i told her to go and play.. haha. then my p5s who were there said, "But Miss Diyana, you do look a lil bit like Gabriella Montez." hahah. thats from High School Musical btw. hahah. seriously. Kids. hehe.
okay.. tom. going out. finally get to see nizam's face. kesian.. didnt get to ikut us gi karaoke. was hoping it be a group thing but you werent there. so me and fir will teman. haidir lum tau. wan tak. and maybe my cousin ikut. just a BIG maybe. why? coz he seems to always bail on me. haha.
like on wed, we were suppose to go out for lunch, he overslept and totally missed it. he woke up like at 6plus? haha.
okaylah.. super tired. tom morning got tuition juga. haiz.. im damn damn tired really.
btw, if cousin ikut tom, please dont mention my blog. i wanna delete some entries before he figures out i have a blog.
the end.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
sorry. can hear my voice in the vids. so horrid. mcm katak. but i was told i am friends with the toads at east coast park. so yah. so sorry.. haha.. malu girl2.
im bit pissed today but shall blog abt it another day. haha. too tired. need beauty sleep. tom long day. till 5.30pm. non stop. and mayb lunch with cousin. just maybe. haiz. from 6.30 to 5.30. tiring tau.
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Monday, January 19, 2009
lesson was crap just now. made me feel so demoralise that im second guessing if this is right for me. but of coz, not as if i have a choice. its something i must do. to please the parents.
and my bank acct. haiz.. paid bills just now. 530 bucks gone.
UOB - 200plus.
DBS - 1100.
haiz.. im unhappy.
im gonna starve myself. no food. tilll 5th feb. if my cousin still wants me there to taste his cooking. haha. its a school day. thurs. see lah how..
the end.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
the Gang ber-Karaoke.
vids will be uploaded later. check out this page soon!! =)
kay.. start research now!!
the end.
parents fighting abt money again.
god. as if money grow on trees. or can be picked up from the streets. why cant my mum see that? especially during this economic crisis. so damn hard to find money.
anyway, gonna say goodbye to another 500 bucks from my bank account to help dad pay with bills. he doesnt know it yet. but his bill is like 330! 200 spent on data charges on his iphone. haiyo. i guess he was excited and stuff that he forgotten the part where i told him can surf only at home and when you can get the wireless.sg signal. haiz. plus my bill and internet bill, thats close to 500. seriously after that, no more spending till next pay check. so sorry ppl if i cant go out with you guys. im on a strict budget.
karaoke was fun. haha. but dunno if the rest enjoyed it. seems like they dont. and im sorry, i know my voice was like super BAD!! haha. after that, went to eat. then walked from orchard to city hall. my god, aching feet. but fun lah when im ard the guys. never stop laughing seh.. ader aje. haha.. but our main victim was haidir. hahaha. sorry lah bro. kita org main2 jer.. dun take it to heart kay? =) reached home ard 10.15pm. bathe and stuff and then finished on my marking. haiz.. then did a lil lesson plan and chatted with fir before finally going to sleep.
asked cousin to join us yesterday coz i think he kinda wanted to ask me out when he msg and told me he had no plans. but i already had plans. he wanted to join us lah. want to know my friends but when i said karaoke, he bailed. haha. maybe next time he said. haha. apelah..
today, gonna complete my lesson plan and prepare my english materials to teach. omg. my RO want to observe me tom. damn scared can.. haiz.. help help help!!
photos of karaoke and more will be uploaded when i have the time. haha. sorry for the delay.
the end.
Friday, January 16, 2009
badan panas. or mayb weather had been cold.
anyway, lost my voice. damn. tom how to karaoke??
my p1s so notty today! i shouted the whole day at them can.. haiz..
PE, dunno how to behave. after recess, dunno how to line up properly. forget who their partners are and where they are suppose to stand. maths, some still can tell me dunno how to do when the answers were already given and gone tru together with the class. nampak sangat tak pay attention. then walk here and there, talk talk, play play. go toilet without permission. tu pun i found out when my kids told me. haha. p1s. how innocent. kalau dah besar, they be called tatter tales. haha. but haiz.. penat. sakit tekak. hilang suara.
then.. gotta stay back for basketball. grabbed only a hamburger in sch. and that wasnt enuff kay. haha. didnt eat from 6am to 1pm. and i didnt had dinner the day before coz was still full from lunch with cousin. then after basketball, left sch ard 4.30 to go for tuition which ended at 6.15. got home and first thing i did was to wash my hands and eat!! haiz.. lapar.. haha. one pathetic small burger to last me from 6 to 7pm. haiz.. 12hr without food. mcm puasa. hahah.
yeay! karaoke!! haha. best nyer.. but hope they will enjoy themselves lah.. nyanyi tau! alah.. kita kita kita jer.. takya malu.. suara aku pun mcm katak! haha. confirm hujan.. bawa payung eh semua.. hehe. =)
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
today, gonna sleep early. haha. like after isyak? haha.
sch ended at 12.30 but ive stuff to do like decorate the classroom so i ended at 2pm. ard 1plus i got a msg from izzat. replied his msg but he didnt reply back so i tot hes bz. then called me ard 2. acted like some prudential agent. i was like.. the voice sounded familiar. like haidhir. so i tot it was haidhir. i laughed and said 'yeah right' several times b4 he gave in. i mati2 ingat it was haidhir lah.. so he asked me out for lunch.. i didnt really feel like it coz i was hot and sweaty and tired and i didnt really wanna meet him.. we chatted a lil while more and then he said "ish, my own cousin seh.. takkan got no time for her.." so thats when i realised it was him! haha. sotong. so, we met. met him at kembangan mrt. coz i didnt hear the part he said he pick me up from sch. haha. i was on the bus to meet him at bedok when he called. we didnt know where to go.. drove ard and finally decided to eat at beach road. army market. i miss the food there! my nasi ayam sambal. haha. cravings satisfied. then he brought me to eat ice cream kat tingkat atas. another craving satisfaction. haha. so now he has 3 more ice cream place to bring me too.. i dunno where. he wanna suprise me. hoho. then drove to tanah merah ferry terminal. walked for a while then home. haha.
oh. had a shock of my life. he told his dad abt me. like okay fine. his dad knows me like duh. but he told him abt my life. he told his dad that he pitied me and stuff. abt my family. abt hamad. he also puji me tak henti2.. said the guy who get to marry me will be the luckiest man which his dad agreed. i was like... okay.. but seriously, i dont feel as such. haha. but of coz he didnt say or ask his dad if he could marry me. coz if he would, he would take really good care of me coz i deserve it. 20k duit hantaran pun takpe. i just laughed lah.. haha.. funny. so thats what guy talk is all abt.. haha.. sorry.. hadnt really had my girl talk with mum. she'll just oppose any guy im dating. but he did told his dad once that he had feelings for me before.
told him, i feel like telling my dad abt us. i dunno, i feel the need to talk. but i cant. and he agreed. knowing how my parents are, we both agreed that we should not tell them yet. keep it low.. then he said something that really made me laugh.. "we're not committing incest right?" hahah.. like omg! NO!! haha.. that be a crime! haha..
oh btw, we are not together lah.. haha.. dun worry.. what i meant abt us was his feelings towards me. like i feel like telling my dad that izzat likes me and seek his advice on that.. but yah.. we cant.. haha. shall keep it this way for now.. haha. hmm.. he has this retreat on 5th feb and he be cooking! haha.. so he kinda asked me to come coz told him i want to taste his cooking one day.. haha.. its a chalet lah with his tp police friends. see lah how.. i shy.. hahah...
hes at work now. starting on his new 12hr shift. 8pm to 8am. then fri sat off-day.. best kan.. haiz.. i need a break! penat tau.. i nak travel the world! haha. he wanna travel with me. but i cant. parents. haiz. wad luck. haha. but he dont mind going out with me and my friends. thats cool. but nah... haha.. not now. haha..
yeay! dah isyak! finally.. waited so long.. thus the very long entry to refrain me from falling asleep before performing my solat. haha. yeay! lepas solat boleh tido!! =)
the end.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
today, spent money on new wallets when my old one is still in good condition. had it for 4 years? yeah. and i did mentioned wallets didnt i? wallets with a S. yeah. bought two. know why? i was spoilt for choice! and having nur diyana as a shopping kaki is not a good idea.. so PLEASE, someone, next time, be free for me?? haha.
yeah. she told me to buy both. maybe can exchange after a while. but mcm leceh kan tukar2 wallet. haiz.. maybe give one to my sister. see how lah.. but i still cant decide!! Braun Buffel or Esprit wallet. haiz.. any opinions? haha.
then went to Airport Cocoa Tree. bought chocolates for my kids. then passed by Body Shop. i bought foot scrub and spray and also Vitamin E hand cream for my scaly hands that im suffering right now. haha. banyak kan blanja.. haiz...
Braun Buffel wallet - 77 bucks
Esprit wallet - 50 bucks
Cocoa Tree - 48 bucks
Body Shop - 51 bucks
haiz.. in all i spent 226!! omg!! i could have bought myself a diamond ring from Citigems!! ive been wanting to buy that particular ring.. it cost 256 but haiz.. okok. self discipline. no more spending. that also means no eating at fancy restaurants. haiz.. keluar makan ngan diyana pun boleh tahan mahal seh.. swensens.. delifrance.. haiz.. budget budget..
im tired. really. had house practice from 4.30 to 5.30. and had basketball before that. 3 to 4.30. kids i had today was so up to mischief. im losing my voice thanks to them. haiz.. stress tau jadi cikgu. budak2 zaman skarang.. haha..
btw, hate my lovescope.
Daily Single's Love: January 14, 2009
VIRGO August 23-September 22
Unfinished business is holding you back big time. You have some amends you need to make. Before you embark on a vigorous schedule of dating and partying, tidy up the mess from the past. It's okay to say sorry or give thanks where thanks are due. The sooner, the better.
say sorry? to who? okay fadzli. but otherwise, i be saying thank you. yes, thanks for breaking my heart..
the end.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah....
this song is stuck in my head. and i finally got hold of this song when i was in my cousin's car and he told me this was his fav. haha.
anyway, met Eunice yesterday. i was tired. abt to go home but she msged me and asked me out for dinner at Eastpoint coz she's in Simei area. so yah.. met her ard 7ish. then chilled at Starbucks after dinner. we were freezing in the cold wind! like whats with the weather these days? i kinda had a lot of time to waste while waiting for her, so i stopped by Mac @ Bedok Int then took 38 for a long bus ride to tamp lib to return book when i can return it at bedok. then took bus again to simei and waited for her. haha.
today, went to Parkway pula ngan Diyana. she shopped like crazy! bought a few pairs of shoes and clothes! padahal she have alot lah.. she really need to control herself seh.. ngan duit bill like 500 plus. technically payday was yesterday, and today, tinggal 500 jer to survive the month. haiz.. shall help her. but she got to do it on her own first! haha.
okay.. shall prepare my lessons and sleep! so penat. reached home ard 9pm. 10pm, bed time!! haiz.. long day tom.. sch then got basketball practice then house practice. haiz..
er.. haidhir just msged me.. asked me out.. seriously? im malas. haha.
the end.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
woke up at 12pm. hehe. lepak habis.. super tired from my long weekday.. then got msg from haidir asking us to go out.. but i guess only i was free.. haha.. so mendak lah at home.. i seriously could just spend my day sleeping! but boring lah.. haha.. so we planned to meet but dunno go where.. i swear singapore is so BORING! haha. nowhere to go.. i asked my cousin for ideas pun he dunno.. was suppose to have tuition but mum didnt call.. so anyway, we met up at 5.30pm.. took a bus to Mustafa Center. hahah. coz i wanted to buy track pants lah.. and he also bought foodies to bring to camp. haha. then cabbed down to Marina Square to eat. duduk bebual.. he said something funny but i cant remember what it was. haha.. protein shake. haha.. talked abt Wan also.. wah... wan garang eh.. dengar2 from haidir, nak arrest org, fierce.. i must see lah one day.. chey.. boleh tahan eh abg2 police kita.. haha.. after eating, walked to Raffles City coz haidir nak amik sharifah but i had to leave. so yah.. cabbed to nenek's house. haha. 19 bucks.. waduh... haha..
tom.. got to stay home. do lesson plan.. haiz.. seriously.. i wonder if this is the job for me..
now, online ngan fir.. helping him with his msn problem.. sorry if i cant be of much help.. hehe..
the end.
Friday, January 9, 2009
yeah man.. thats how im feeling now! FRUSTRATED!! ARGH!
i feel like a loud scream and tearing my hair out of my head. argh!!!
im also tired. week been so packed. slept so damn early just so i can wake up.
have to stay on a freaking friday to supervise basketball practice. who the hell wanna stay back on a friday?? after which i had tuition at 8pm. god im so tired. my kid's sister asked me why my eyes red. well.. obvious. haha. a bit pissy at the start but snapped out of it after.
msged Ted otw home. coz he called earlier. Aidil saw me at starbucks eastpoint. no wonder he looked familiar.. haha. heran juga why they kept looking.. nak kate jambu, taklah.. so messy.. haha.. yah.. then as usual, blur me.. jln menonong naik bus didnt realise that i might have taken the same bus as hamad. coz when i alighted at simei, waiting for the traffic light to change, i saw a guy walked in front of me tho it was red man. haha. tgk gaya mcm hamad. and it was. so yah.. maybe we took the same bus. but of coz i tak tau.. haha.. not that i care.
argh. frustration still overwhelming. god!! seriously!! ARGH!!!
chatting with fir while blogging but my eyes are really heavy.. wont want to fall asleep again in front of my lappie.. did that so many times already.. haiz.. need a life. nites world!
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Tuesday, January 6, 2009
yesterday also. slept at 9.30. haha. cannot tahan already.. but got interupted by a phonecall from haidhir. haha. funny shit. i was of coz in a daze kan.. i just couldnt figure out who even tho he mentioned his name.. when he said haidhir, i tot it was haidir.. but then voice so diff.. so couldnt be haidir.. he called just to kacau me lah.. coz normally i sleep late mah.. but yah.. soon after he asked me to go back sleep. but till now, i dunno if its him. coz haidhir i know, the voice damn cute. hahaha. ok stop.
chatting with my cousin. before he go for night shift. said he's been telling his friends abt me.. but too bad we cant get married. hohoho. yah.. he should be out soon tho.
me? entah.. i dunno if i got task to do but seems like i do.. haiz.. but if not, then i shall go to sleep! tom got CCA carnival lagi.. haiz.. i need to get myself organized! not that my table is messy but rather what i have to do.. which i dunno if ive any.. or am blur as usual. god help me.
oh.. planning to buy iphone. entah.. see how lah.. 16gb? unless can find better hp. but pda then i can claim my 400 from moe again. hohoho. i love government. haha. coz iphone games quite fun leh.. haha. see how lah..but i prefer to have fm radio lah.. if buy mp3, problem with me is that i love to blast.. then when hp ring, cannot hear.. haha..
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Monday, January 5, 2009
he came to his senses.. he called me ard 7pm.. said that he hope i didnt think otherwise when he msged me earlier in the day at 8am.. well.. i said no.. i didnt think much into it lah.. hehe.. okay so here's what he smsed.
U knw ur e best gal ive evr known ur e type of gal ive been searchng hgh n low 4 ages.rmembrng e stories abt ur charctr,i cud tel n forem0st c ur e best perfct gal tats misng in ma life,ive realised it 2day.dun b shockd bt its e truth.if oni u we wernt cousin!ma gawd diyana ur evry mans dream gal
haha.. if that was true, how come im still single? hahaha... so yah.. thats it for us.. no more going out and stuff.. i think thats what he meant in that phone call.. haha..
and... haidir pass driving!! so happy for u bro.. i couldnt sleep yesterday.. then suddenly thought of him.. teringat abt his driving test but forgot when. ingat nak msg him the next morn and ask.. but he called me instead to tell me he got test today.. haha.. telepathy.. haha.. so yah.. i wished him luck and said i pray for him.. and.. he passed!! hahah.. so gang.. ape lagi.. hari raya, dia lah driver!! hahaha...
oh.. haidhir msged me on msn.. dah lama tak dengar from him.. haha.. he loves to call me PRINCESS!!! hahah.. so funny lah he.. we caught up.. and ive to be on my toes.. haha.. coz he's like my cousin.. puji me tinggi langit and sweet talk and stuff.. and now.. talking to helfi.. this guy from my attachment who used to like me back then.. but i turn him down.. tho he said he'd wait.. but get real.. how many of you guys actually mean what u say.. haha.. its true okay..
anyway.. im not rushing to be in a relationship.. dun feel like even being in one tho its nice to have someone to love and pamper u.. haha.. but yah.. not ready.. maybe never will.. terlalu serik.. haha..
oklah.. need to prepare my lesson.. then get some sleep!! penat seh.. actually nap in the bus otw home..
the end.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
ee... azman msged me on msn..
hahaha. hmm.. couldnt sleep.. entah kenapa.. but anyway.. shall go do my laundry before i start on my lesson plan..
wan.. hope you are okay.. with ur ear.. hehe..
haidir, good luck with ur test..
nizam, fir and ted.. have a great week!
oh.. and to my other readers, have fun!! =)
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been doing my lesson plan since er.. 10 plus? 11? i have no idea seh how to.. i mean the syllabus. the method of teaching.. is there use of any teaching aides? help!!
tom.. gotta wake up early and plan my lesson. hopefully i can do it. tho i need to go and get myself textbook to refer. haiz.. die die die..
so not gonna be online tom. even if i am, no one talks to me lah. hardly anyway. haha.. and i always appear offline. oops.. secret gone. haha. yah.. so its just me and my lappy, planning my lessons. haiz..
and omg.. i just realise that cousins can get married! shit! he better not know that kay... omg.. it be so freaking wierd!! found out just now while i was doing a lil self-research on islamic teaching. god.
and thanks fir and haidir for ur pity on me. haha. well.. thats my life.. nothing i do is ever good enough.
oh. i splurge again today. haha.. on baju.. bought 5 tops plus 3 pairs of socks for 75 bucks at giordano.. waliao.. haha.. 2 of which is man tops. haha.. i know.. i m sick.. man tops and man perfume.. hmm.. am i turning lesb? hehe.. need to buy maybe 2 pairs of trackpants tho. cari2 tadi tak nampak.. maybe go monday see.. then after.. no more!! haha.. till pay day that is.. coz planning to go shop with cousin. haha..
okay. hit the sack!
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
so dee left first and soon after he came.. showed him my sch coz we pass the area anyway.. he said so next time can just fetch me from sch. haha. we went to eat coz we were starving.. ate at bedok corner..the western, damn nice.. we were so full.. then head to his house coz we had alot to spare. so he took a bathe while i lay in his bed and rest while watching tv in his room. then we head to TM and i got my watch!! hehe. initially he pointed out the couples watch.. i did eye on it also lah but at that time didnt know who to give that man watch. haha. so yah.. it was between the couple watch and that watch. couple watch was good bargain also. but he had the exact same design but diff colour jerlah.. but he didnt mind coz it was nice.. haha.. yah.. could have given it to bones eh.. but in the end, i bought the bling bling one. haha. after that went to ehub. hehe.. yes tuition was cancelled coz i wasnt in the mood.. tired lah.. so catch a movie.. bedtime stories.. wanted to watch yesman but too late.. movie started at 9.25pm. it was ard 8.10.. so we rushed back to his place to grab popcorns he had. haha.. funny.. then met his parents again.. bet they were like 'keluar lagi...?'
movie ended ard 11.. he sped off in his car sent me home.. kesian.. besok kerje afternoon shift.. felt bad lah.. anyway.. mum abit pissed coz im out with him.. and his dad kinda asked where we go and stuff.. so mayb not a good idea to go out again.. haha.. a sign that we cant.. so yah..
smsing him now tho i should really sleep. tired. and yah.. fought with mum.. abt my sis getting away with stuff.. as usual, im to blame.. she maki puki mak jahaman sundal and wadaver else at me.. so yah. wadaver lah.. feeling all teary.. i just cant wait for my life to end seriously. like why am i still here?? i do alot of good also she cant see.. tau nak see my faults aje.. im sick and tired of this life.. seriously, do u think i want to fight always.. its tiring.. and stressful.. but ive to stand up for my rights.
dad just called. to see if im home.. asked what show i watched and what my mum said.. told him she make noise ah.. then he said nvmlah let her be.. wadaver she say just do je.. i feel a lil better that he's a lil on my side.. maybe i am daddy's girl after all..
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
ted, fir and fadzli -> watch
wan -> both
haidir -> ring
izzat -> no reply yet
but gotta say.. fadzli's response was good.. haha.. his reply..
Yay...i'm a size large. Hah kidding. Ya la 500 is a lot at one go. If u feel guilty now then u probably will after u buy. Get the watch first la, if not enough then can always get the ring later ;p
then on msn.. he said..
~>IMpóŞŞiBLÊ Is NóŤhiNĞ™ ՋՋ supermoto Ջ says:
yup...u buy the watch then can attract ur future bf...
~>IMpóŞŞiBLÊ Is NóŤhiNĞ™ ՋՋ supermoto Ջ says:
u buy ring then future bf thot u married
hahah.. so looks like in only getting the watch aje? hahah... like what fir said.. watch is more impt.. quite true.. haha.. okay.. settled then.. =)
and the thing abt my cousin.. after talking to haidir, i think its make sense to me.. that i rather him not finding out the truth abt him being adopted. so that means we cant be together.. which is good. haha. the truth will definately hurt him coz hes the kinda guy who rather know the truth then a lie. so to have his parents to lie to him for like 20 years now is definately gonna change him. and i dun want to see him hurt. so yah.. haha..
okay then.. shall prepare myself for tom.. god help me with teaching!!
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so goodbye 2008. had lots of painful and sweet memories. alot of angry ones too.
im still pissed with what happened yesterday and even things way before that.
as usual, happy new year msges were sent and received. fir, azman (which is a suprise to receive from him), izzat wished me while i get replies from ted, zhuang, charlene, ellyas, wan, florence, my p4 student swee may,nur diyana, nizam,eunice and fadzli. in order of lah. thanks u guys. out of all, i like fadzli's msg the most. haha.
Happy new year to u too bones! May 2009 bring u success in teaching, driving, and happy relationships x) Keep smiling! :-D
my new year resolutions are still the same. like what fadzli said thats why i like his msg. as if he knew it was my resolution tho i hadnt told anyone. haha. so yah.. teaching, driving and happy relationships.
omg. Wan got cotton bud stuck in his ear again! thats twice already. hehe. he asked me if i wanna go see a surgery. how can i refuse? haha. so yeap. shall get ready to leave. hurhur.
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im all about being FAIR.
tho im out with family on new year to see the fireworks, my sis went out with her friends.
contridicting the part where mum told me "takde countdown countdown" when haidir called in the afternoon. she assumed. but we didnt even had plans then. its freaking 1.30am now and still not home yet.
i started the year feeling angry rather then happy. but hey. whats fucking new right?
and she wanted to bring my cam? hah! fat hope fat bitch. u are not touching my camera.
shit. im crying. fuck lah. why is life so unfair!!!?
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