Monday, January 28, 2008
finally!
MP is done!! yeayness!
okay, at least the documentation part is done. can u imagine, 431 pages of report???!!
INSANE!!
now, i can focus on my lab quiz, test and exam. phew!
i dun feel good. maybe the stress and what not.
falling ill.
btw, after my exams, i wanna go and run! haha. wanna look good for my DnD. whee!! haha.
all that aside, im actually feeling kinda low.
im so feeling like a bitch. i made a few new guy friends online. and one in particular is making me feel uneasy coz he calls me sayang, dear.. love you. miss you..
and he's not even my bf! i think im still attached to azman. i think. the last time i heard from him was the sunday when i came home from chalet! speaking of which ive yet to upload the pics. haha.
haiz. my life is just too complicated.
yesterday when i went to bed at ard 4am, i cried myself to sleep. again. i dunno why i suddenly cry. maybe coz whenever i have time for myself, i think of him. even now i do. and it hurts me to be in this situation. why is that i can never be happy with a man i love? they say that love is the most beautiful thing that can happen to a person but why does it seems bleak to me? dont i deserve to be loved just like everybody else? what wrong have i done to deserve this?
and as if that wasnt enough, i dreamt about him just now during my nap.
dear God, please, give me happiness that i deserve!!
the end.