Thursday, February 21, 2008
how angry i felt when i saw them.
about horoscopes and friendster msg.
wadahell!
u have time to do those and not reply to my bloody email??!
fine. avoid me. you never seemed to care anyway.
stood haidir up today. i went to sch to study. fadzli joined. so it was the two of us. how awkward. he knows about my situation. kheng boon told him. wonder what else he said abt me. fadzli said nothing much. hmm.. wonder wad. saw haidir. said dun wanna come sch today. msged him and he called and saw me with fadzli having lunch. not dating okay u idiot. haha. and sorry i didnt tell u earlier fadzli sent me home. i didnt know he would. he asked if i was going home after blaja. i said yes. then he said yahoo! i brought your stinky helmet for you. haha. my stinky helmet? but apologised if i did coz he picked me up from napfa and sent me home after dinner at simpang at 12.45am. haha. he seriously look innocent lah. shy shy boy. talk to me so soft i can hardly hear him. eunice and flor wanted to pair us up. but no way. i still love the bf in a wierd kinda way and i think he is too good for a girl like me. yes, he's single. so boy next door! haha.
14 February 2008
i think what Wan said made sense. abt me having to work hard for that something despite knowing the outcome of it as shown by God. but i just hope it would be easier. 2 months i cried myself to sleep. do u know how much it hurts? i cry when im alone and have nothing to do. all becoz i bloody love and miss him alot. and he cant even reply my emails when he can email junks to ppl including me. ive nothing to say but hope God will be kind enough on this helpless soul.
the end.